just finished watching the video on swims on ATV news. I always feel very uncomfortable when i thought back that time. i feel sorry for the people who had helped me through the project. sincerely. i felt that i have failed to thank them properly. i am very sorry. but i really want to say that i'm really really really grateful.... and if... Dr. cynthia yau, i have disappointed you, i am really really sorry... i'm really very very thankful, but i am so sorry to the point that i do not know how to face you. I want to tell you that I'm doing fine and tell you that I have chosen the right path, so that I no longer think that I have wasted the resources..... but... I couldn't. I am not stable. I hope to look for you one day and tell you that I'm doing very well. but i couldn't .. yet.. it's already a year and i'm just at this state... 對不起。我還不能報答你。請原諒。怨我，憎我還好。但，不要不記得我。我洗完你還儅我是這個大家庭的一分子。it's my BT background that always made me an outcast. i really don't wish for that.. but sometimes, couldn't help. I couldn't help, Swims members couldn't help too. 十分對不起。